December 21, 2008

  • I took the kids to see Christmas lights tonight. It's always been our tradition every year except last year when I was going through chemotherapy and just couldn't walk. We usually go to Naples Island in Long Beach where the houses are on the canal are absolutely beautiful. Million dollar homes are decorated to the hilt and I have just as much fun peeking inside the windows as I do looking at the lights. I love to see how people decorate their homes and often wonder if I had that much money if I would have the same tastes? Tonight we didn't make it to Naples as Trace was really sick with a cold. We went to a neighborhood in Huntington Beach instead that was really nicely decorated. We stopped at the corner 7eleven and I bought everyone hot chocolate and a furlined hat for Trace. We walked the neighborhood and had a really nice time. Poor Trace was pooped, though, by the time we got done. Doug had to work tonight and while I'm extremely grateful for the money, I missed him.


    Things like this are almost bittersweet. One one hand I am so grateful to be alive to carry on with my traditions and on the otherhand I find myself reliving the horrible feelings of a year ago. I'm almost glad we didn't make it to Naples tonight as it was an almost eerie, creepy feeling to know I'd beat death for a 3rd time. I'm so acutely aware that most people don't battle cancer 3 times and win and I'm also keenly aware that there most likely will be a next time and that I might not win that battle. I take each day as it comes and I think from here on out I'll change my traditions a little bit from the past so that they're new and fresh for the future! :)


Comments (5)

  • I am so glad that you are here another year and able to spend time with your family during the holidays! I keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you and your loved ones have a wonderful holiday!

  • *HUGS* I missed ya sis!!!

    Sounds like you guys had a great time, and hopefully that's what will be remembered. I'm still planning on making it out to see you some time next year. >_< By the way, email or message me your address. Sorry, no Christmas cards, but just for future reference. :) Would have loved to send you a postcard from Istanbul though! Which! I've posted pictures and stories. Go look!

  • I'm with navywife...I am so glad that you are still here and are doing well *hugs* You, my friend, are a fighter.

    BTW, I'm glad that I'm not the only person who likes to look in the windows of other peoples' houses to see how they are decorated.

  • I'm so glad that you got to see the lights. I love being able to take in the lights around us. Downtown this year looks really nice.

    I hope that Trace is doing much better now. I'm really happy that you're still with us and your loved ones. Celebrate life! {{{Hugs}}}

  • Have a very Merry Christmas!!!!!!

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