August 30, 2012
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I am very tired of feeling like an asexual person due to my physical problems. I miss wearing make-up, perfume and feeling feminine. I miss being able to dress up and go out. I miss feeling my husband’s pride in me when some other guy looks at me Now……… I feel like I’ve been reduced to a robot with pain. Let me tell ya, when you’re in this much pain and your bum is raw and bleeding, making love is the last thing you feel like doing.
Tonight I got pissed off enough about it to do something about it.
I gave my husband a blow-job and then took a nice long bubble bath with lots of scent and lots of candles and I soaked for a good long time.
I feel at least like a fraction of a female again.
Comments (3)
That sucks, pardon the pun, that your illness is draining you so much. And, I do hope that your husband bought you a really nice vibrator to help you get through some stress relieving fun. (Hoping that he enjoyed you as much as you enjoyed him.)
Baths are wonderful. Green candles for healing, carnation oil for restoring energy. There are lots of different colors and scents that you can use to help achieve much needed results… as you know. We have a sound machine in our bedroom to drown out the noise of the neighbors, dogs, cars, etc. It has a meditation sound that I just love. If I lived near you, I’d come over and do your make up for you too.
Positively sweet energy to you and yours.
Megan, you will ALWAYS be beautiful. I know you want the makeup and pretties, but the real beauty is all the way to the bone marrow with you. I wish there was something to do about the pain… huge hippo hugs!
**HUGS** I’m glad you were able to find a modicum of intimacy in the middle of all of that. **HUGS**