Heeeeeee!  She's agreed to meet me for lunch and didn't think it too wierd at all when I proposed the meeting.  She ended her reply with "PS - should we invite John?  LOL"

That of course got me thinking.  I don't think I really care to see him face to face again regardless of how priceless it would be to watch him squirm, BUT I am going to propose that we go to lunch at either the Olive Garden which is where John took me for dinner, or Chilli's which is where he took me for lunch and S and I will take pictures together and send them to him via email.  hehehehehe!!!  hehehehehe

I'm leaving for Idaho this week to see my terminally ill friend, Marty.  When I was up there in October, I had a "one night stand" with a guy I met up there. He'd told me he was single, that he had friends that he socialized with, but was infact single.  Turns out he wasn't..........oops........In January she'd found me on MySpace, was very hurt and wanted to know what happened. I told her the truth, every bit of it. I left out details so as not to hurt her, but he'd lied to both of us and I saw no reason to protect him.  She needed to know what he was really like. I liked her.  I liked her a lot and felt badly that she'd had that done to her.  I thought about asking her to have lunch with me while I'm there.  What do you think?  Too wierd??

Well now, I'm no longer an Ipod virgin.  I finally broke down and bought a Nano for my trip to Idaho next week.  I abhor trends, fads and mainstream thought processes and resisted for as long as I felt necessary...........although after the last airplane ride, I now find it a necessity! LOL
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Not all ears are created equal.  I also picked up a set of Gummy Headphones because a friend of mine said she just got a pair and liked hers much better than the ones that came with her ipod.  I tried to put them in my ears, but my ears are too small.  I can't even get them to fit where they're supposed to.  lol

Wolves are one of my Power Animals/Totem Animals/Spirit Guides.  I was very sorry to see that they're now in danger!!  No pressure to fill out the petition, but if you feel like helping, "we'd" sure appreciate it!

I got a snake!!  For Mother's Day I got a Ball Python.  Her's Bewtiful!!   She's a 3 foot long, adult, female.  Doug took me to the reptile store where I was looking at getting a Bearded Dragon.  The babies are sooooooooo cute!  But then my son's gf joined us at the shop and she had her snake with her which got me looking at snakes.  I had noticed Jazzmin when I first walked in but was reluctant to get a larger snake. I'd wanted to get a smaller one and have it grow with me. Still, I was drawn to her for some reason and asked the shopkeeper if I could hold her.  When I held her for the first time, I knew she was mine.  She cuddled right up to me and seemed to say, "here you are!"  She has scarring on her back that's probably from a heat lamp.  The lamp was probably in the cage with her and she was probably up against it and trying to get away because the scar runs the length of her back.  She's also got some spot scarring that looks to me like her previous owner left her dinner in the cage with her unattended which is a no-no. She's gorgeous to me, though, and I'm happy to give her a good home! She's got an awesome temperment and doesn't mind being handled.  A few times when one of our many kids has moved too quickly while she's around my neck, she's gotten startled. Her instinct is to recoil instead of strike which is great! We go just about everywhere together! I keep her around my neck and a jacket over her for warmth and protection and I've never had a problem with her. The jacket covers her so people don't freak out unless they look closely. 

There was a little girl in the shop when we got her who was really, really afraid of snakes.  Her daddy pointed to me and said, "look, that lady has a snake around her neck, see they're ok."  He nudged her towards me and when I turned and smiled, she came closer.  I asked her if she'd like to touch her and she timidly nodded her head. I got down on my knees so I was her height and showed her how to stroke a snake and not startle it. By the time we were done, she was petting her chin and behind her ears as well as down her back.  She grinned a huge grin and as she walked away, I asked her name. "It's Jasmin" she said as she put her hand in her father's. Thus my snake's name is Jazzmin after the little girl who was brave enough to come and see her.

The Diet Pepsi Faerie strikes again!!!  I still don't know who left the DP on the previous day.  I asked around and either no one knows or no one will fess up.  I left the office early yesterday as my daughter had swimming prelims for the finals.....in which she bettered both her times and qualified for the finals on Friday......anyway, I left at 12:30 yesterday and didn't return until this morning.  I walked into my office (cubicle......but I still like to delude myself and call it an "office") and I noticed two 24 oz DP's sitting on either side of my monitor.  This time I know I'm not crazy.  I turned around to unlock my file drawers, and there's another one sitting on the filing cabinet.   Someone had scattered a 6-pak of 24 oz bottles of DP around my office!!  How cool is that?  I think it might be Marshall who knew originally that I preferred DP to Diet Coke.....Marshall and I'd had a brief interest in each other.......I had walked in on Tuesday and he walked up to my desk with a calendar in hand and stated, "I'm here to honor you!"  Lost in confusion, I nodded my head in disbelief and said, "for whatever reason, I'll be happy to take it."  He whipped out the calendar at the top and pointed to the "It's national Honor Your Elders month!" across the top.  He said, "I'm here to honor you as my elder!".  I'm a whopping 2 years older than he is but he never lets me forget it, especially when I turned 40......which I gleefully look forward to HIS 40th next February!  Anyhow, I think he might be behind the DP gifts.  What an awesome blessing in not only the DP but the fun of the gift itself and starting out the workday in a good way!

Namaste

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Your Inner Color is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart. You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone. Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.

A Blessed Beltaine and  Happy Full Moon to you all!

Yesterday a few of my assistants called in sick so I took a "working lunch" at my desk.  I never left my desk the entire time I was eating. I looked up from my computer and noticed a Diet Pepsi sitting on my desk.  My memory is shot to Hell these days so I figured I'd gotten it out of the fridge, set it on my desk and forgotten about it.........stranger things have happened!  But then I remembered that earlier, I had searched the fridge for a cold soda, found a leftover bottle of last week's flat soda and returned to my desk with it.  I picked up the Diet Pepsi thinking that maybe I'd brought it in with me that morning, forgotten to take it to the fridge and left it where it was when I set it down.  I picked it up to take it to the fridge so that today I would have something cold to drink.  When I picked it up, it was COLD!!  I asked my assistant if she had set it on my desk.  She looked puzzled and said, "no, I didn't do it and earlier when I looked to see what you were eating, it wasn't there.  I would have noticed it the first time around." Someone had set a cold Diet Pepsi on my desk for me without me realizing they were there.......computers, dangerous brain-suckers, I think! My assistant was puzzled as well as she'd been close by all the time. Neither of us knows who set it there and when.  CSULB has a contract with Coke and Pepsi can't be sold on campus so someone brought it in especially for me. It was someone who knows me well enough to know I prefer Diet Pepsi over Diet Coke and someone who knows me well enough to know that when I'm focused on something you could set me on fire and I'd never realize it. No one will fess up to doing it.  Thank you to the Diet Pepsi Fae!!!

I tiptoed quietly to the bed so as not to wake Doug, even though that was my actual intent......go figure.......Anyway, I roused him gently on the shoulder to tell him I was getting ready to leave for work.  My big, cuddly, teddy bear had been snoring softly; contented and warm beneath the covers. As I roused him, he rolled over and peeked out from beneath sleepy lids.  Upon seeing who had waken him, his face lit in a smile only the sunshine could rival. It made my day that someone could be so happy just to see me. His radiant smile was a priceless gift; a gift from the Gods to start my day!

So it's been awhile and I thought about giving Xanga up.  I found that I'm too much a part of this community.  I don't always write and I almost hardly ever make it to anyone's site, but I still enjoy just being here.  So many of you have been a part of my life for the past couple of years and although harldy anyone reads anymore, I still just enjoy being here.

I'm happy.  Really, truly happy.  I didn't think I would be and at times I'm not, but overall I am.  It fits.  It's just "right" and "meant to be".  I've never felt so settled with anyone as I do Doug. It's not perfect, I'm not happy all of the time and we'll have things come up along the way that will need to be worked out, but I'm right where I want to be and I never thought I'd find that again.  Sometimes he'll say something or do something that makes me sense, see or feel how precious I am to him and that's a gift that means more than I ever thought it could. To love someone is second nature to me but to be loved, truly loved not just for what I give, is a priceless treasure.

I'm getting back to my roots.  I let myself drift away for awhile and I thought it was out of respect to Doug, but I find I can't disrespect myself. Doug is a Born Again Christian and while he respects me and doesn't hassle me for my beliefs in Witchcraft, the Lord and Lady and the many beings, elements and layers upon layers of intricacy and depth that comes with my beliefs, I found myself downplaying them in supposed "respect" of his beliefs.  Never once did he ask me to do this.  I was in a "Witchy Shop" as I call them; the other day, looking for a gift for my Priestess as I get ready to initiate into her Coven on the 21st of April.  I picked up the book "Advanced Witchcraft" by D.J Conway.  I LOVE that author!  She also wrote "By Oak, Ash and Thorn" about Celtic Shamanism that I really loved as well.  I'm not an "advanced" witch by any means, but I'm also past the books that offer the thin layer of frosting when it comes to knowledge. I suck at knowing what everything is supposed to mean as I've always had my own meanings for them and I suck at knowing all the history of witchcraft and what should always be used for what at a ritual.  I couldn't tell you what herb to really use for Love because Rosemary is always what comes to mind for me when working something for Love.  Maybe I'm a backward Witch, who knows, but I wanted something beyond what was on the mundane plane.  I want knowledge to take me beyond this world.  This book is awesome!  It's down to earth, practical, humble and yet full of knowledge, just what I'm looking for and the kind of information I needed.  She brought up the subject that it doesn't matter what religion a person follows, it all boils down to each of us trying to draw nearer and closer with our Creator regardless of who we regard that to be.  Scrap all the crap that the Christians throw at us, they're trying to get nearer to their God in the ways that they know how regardless of what we view them to be.  Same with any other religion.  So we use Ritual and Spells and energy.  We're doing the same exact thing, growing closer to our Creatress/Creator by chanelling energy, thoughts and intention.  It all brought it into perspective for me, just that one brief paragraph.  I'm really enjoying the book!

Many blessings and love to all of you!  May you look upon the world and smile at the smallest of gifts you've been given!

Blessed Be!

Sorry I've been incommunicado.  Got knocked on my ass with another round of the flu.  My son had a fever of 104.2 last Friday and I took his bump to the Emergency Room; promptly following, like a good Mommy who shares, I came down with it the following day. I've been off work all week and am still not 100%. 

Mandrake, I'm SO sorry I haven't been in touch! I've got your number and I'll try and give you a call this weekend.  I'd love to get together and I hope all went well last weekend.  I'm SO sorry I missed it and was too shook up with Trace in the ER and then too sick to call following that.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Jorriesfollylol!  I love you, Darlin!!!